Our time
They don’t sink
Maybe we are not really meant to meet
Because it hurts
You’re too indifferent
But you know,
My heart skips a beat
When I see you drive
With your yellow to orange head protect
And I think I like it
So I say
See you on the road.
No matter how much you enjoy being single,
there will come a time that you wish to hold somebody else’s hand
while watching sunset at the beach.
You never thought it would happened, but it did.
So, you started praying for Mr. Right and realized that,
Yes! You are truly ready.
I read what I’ve felt
In the words that I’ve written
The mood that I felt.
Oozing positivism starting to disappear
Or maybe I just tried to hide.
I care less of what they think
Decided not to be on social
Maybe interested one will find a way,
Hopefully find me and my poetry
Unstable emotions I don’t why to rely
Can be blinding,
Smiles, laughters,
tears, anger,
disappointments, indifference
All passing, mood swings.
When I think of it I could cry Because I hope so much Maybe this is how it feels to be broken hearted But I hold on to your promises It never fail, I will always trust And never give up. There's something more, that is the best. I believe.
Cleaning some notes on my phone and found this. So I thought of posting it here, where only a few personally know me. This helps me better understand and love myself, I hope this will help you too, I mean if we are on the same page.
Originally written on: February 8, 2016
Do you cry easily? Well I do and I know, I understand, I accept and I learn to love the feeling of it.
Back then I thought I was weak because I easily cry. but as I become mature, I dismiss the idea. I choose well what I believe and accept. Its not a sign of weakness for me anymore. When you cry easily your body is deeply connected to your soul. You have a genuine heart. Your intentions are pure. You’re empathetic. When the brain perceives something that relates to you in a deeper level, the subconscious mind reacts to it thereby producing tears. There are times you cant just stop it.
When you cry you release toxins, yes the all the negative feelings, hurts, regrets, worries, anxieties, confusions, are release in form of droplets of tears. It constitutes to the healing process of your body and soul. I’m a spiritual being ( we all are) that observes and feels, this was revealed to me so I’m sharing it in ways I know. I do not claim scientific evidences but I know its real and happening.
Cry when you feel like. For some it connotes weakness, well it depends. Weakness is just one side of it. It never was it all about. When was the last time you cried? How did you feel about after it? I believe when you hide the pain it gets back to you, our body is like a balloon that holds a certain amount of air that when you put too much into it, it will blow. Go on feel the pain in your tears, express it passively. You’d rather want tears than diseases don’t you? The amount of negative force in you will manifest through your body. So release it, cry healthily, do not overdo. The best time to cry is when you are alone, no hesitations no reservations, just you and your mind and body. Crying helps in the process of healing and solving the problem if you allow it to be.
For kids crying is just simply an expression of pain or disappointments. No wonder they do not bear grudges.
The tears of joy. When you are happy, so happy and so grateful your body cannot contain the joy it releases small watery tears, this is happiness express in most profound way. You can’t help it, its just too genuine it penetrates the soul. Tears of joy is an expression of gratefulness and fullness of grace.
Thanks for reading 🙂
All love ❤
-Criz
I saw him
I saw him with her
I don’t know what to think
I don’t know how to react
But I felt a little heavy
Heaviness in my heart
I was blank for a moment
Everything seems slow
There was sadness.
Strange,
Why did it affect me like that?
This is going too much
I didn’t expect.
Question in my head
Maybe she is special to him
A girlfriend?
But do I care?
It’s difficult to answer.
Was it jealousy?
Or something else?
I’m singing a song
For you
I’m making a poem
For you
I am staring
I am imagining
I am believing
I know,
I have loved you
Before I meet you.
And you feel the same
In my dream, and it feels true.
This longing
Of belongingness
Waiting for you.
The feeling
I have been thinking
I have been writing
I have been believing
Dissolves like a snap
Its funny, in a funny way
Because my friends
Told me “He is gay”
Should I believe
Should I not
But I must admit
It disappoints me a lot.
When I think about it.
I laugh to myself.
So this is how
That foolishness stops.
Forget it.
I missed the show, I could have seen you In my mind, I wonder Were your eyes searching mine? Under the crowded Christmas lights I am hoping, somehow you will like me too And you're interested to know Sometimes I ask myself, if you're thinking of me too But I can’t think any reason why should you. May destiny brings us together You and me, our time Just walking, watching sunset Talking, sweet dancing. Romantic thoughts I keep Written in this sacred space I never thought of someone Like I do, to you. You are strange, good puzzling ways You seldom smile, I wonder why I whisper this feeling to the air And pray you feel the same. Oh funny, this difficulty I'm in It's good but tiring But I just want to thank you For making my heart sparkle again. You may never know All of this But maybe one day I'll tell you about it.
The feeling I hide
Torturing me inside
Spending time thinking
Losing sleep sometimes
I think of him, out of nowhere
Why? Silly! I should stop, I told myself.
We share different beliefs.
But this feeling, I keep to myself.
This feeling I am hiding,
This feeling I can’t even accept.
This feeling I am now freeing.
Days go by, I haven’t seen him
So here I am writing
Maybe I miss him.
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